MOOD:TIRED

its been 5 days.. 5 struggling days without enough sleep.. not a single minute!! how am i managed to live my life this way?? inever done this before.. tired already..d0ing anyting like i'am 'perdAna menteri'..huh...why my life should like this..?? i know i changed a lot these past few months.. i aware with this changed of behaviour.. and i feel sorry for all this if my changed gave any impact in your life, increase your burden, make u feel uncomfortable and feel bad about that.. im sorry if i just make all of u feel that way.. but everything happen for some reasons.. what makes all of u so mad at me?? is it just because i have someone in my life n i have to divide the attention to everyone?? or is it because of i always spent my night with my luv king and had dinner with him for almost everyday?? or maybe it is because of i rarely at home since i've been dated with him?? i have to divide my time to my family,,my luv king n the one most imp0rtant thing is my bussiness,,i need sum rest..i want to shout that I WAS TIRED ALREADY!!!!1

mr n mrs kamarul...

What a day.. been thinking about all the things that happen.. been listening to the black eye peace The time since the morning.. till now, i keep listen to it.. this is really distract me.. i just cant get it out from my head.. it keep playing there, in my mind..to mrs kamarul dont say anything if u dont know me n dont exactly know what happen around u.. so, dont talk anything bad about me behind me.. face me babe, face me and make everything clear.. there's lots of ways if we want to keep everything clean n clear.. n please be honest.. if u dont like me, just straight away tell me.. i can deal with all that.

to mr kamarulzaman akmal,,

im happy with him.. u guys want to see me happy rite?? so now, i am happy.. with u as friends, with him be by myside everytime, take care of me.. i love this moment .. please dont ruin this one.. im working hard to get to this level.. really hard!! we are just the planner n not the judge.. what ever happen between us in the future, its our matter.. nothing to do with u guys.. i choose him, so i'll take the risk.. im facing everything by myself after this.. i put lots of effort on this one.. please, i wanna make this one a successful one.. all i need is your support, your pray.. i dont need this kind of thing.. its just waste my time, waste the energy to think bout this unnecessary problem.. i hope u can make it clear..

mood:sad

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